An appointment with the Dr. today revealed I have gonartrosis arthritis in my knee. I actually think it's in both knees. It's not osteoarthiritis, however it is degenerative. I have been referred to a specialist in Querteraro. Tomorrow I will make the appointment. I've always thought walking is a good thing. This past month or so, I haven't been doing too much of that. Today the Dr. gave me some pain control which should allow me to walk in a couple of days. Why now? How did it come on so suddenly? So many questions. Surrender and acceptance yet again is needed. I'm so sick of being aware and awake. I'm so sick of being detached. I'm so sick of being objective. I'm so sick of surrendering and accepting. I don't want any more 'tests' on this journey. Any more bumps in the road. I've had enough. I'm don't want to deal with anymore. So there! End of story. End of my whine for today.
"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight."